Category: Depression
Mental Health Screening Tools

Mental Health Screening Tools

Mental Health Screening Tools Oy vey. Despite knowing what my results would be today, because it’s been a rough few weeks. I took this depression screen test that I saw come through the Mental Health Association of Erie County Facebook feed. Same one you get at a…

Tarot Card Health Reading

Health Reminder

Health. Ugh. This. Hit. Hard. Today. I’ve had a VERY BAD week. Monday was the worst. Bottom crawling, called doctor to make appointment. Tuesday/Wednesday I slept a lot. A lot, a lot. Naps after work that really just meant going to bed at dinnertime and waking…

Weird

I feel really weird right now. Last night I was bubbly and filled with possibility, a million ideas for my friend’s theater company. I had a great day of work. Did a wee bit of writing. Went to bed late with a head full of thoughts.…

Downward Spiral

Right now. In the midst of depression it’s hard to remember the feeling of “normal” which is why I find blogging about these things so beneficial for me—-when I look back at my words I try to learn and understand where I was and where I…

Mirror, Mirror

And Just Like That Off the Roller Coaster. I really hate myself sometimes. I start doing good things for myself and moving forward and then I hit a wall, get stuck in the muck and erase any forward progress. it happens all the time. It happens…

No Foolin’ This is Depression

My head hurts. Is it really already time to get up? What’s the point? Where the hell did this depression come from? Why won’t it go away? What’s wrong with me? Why am I so tired? It’s only two o’clock? Really? Get your ass moving, you’re…

The Universe

The UNIVERSE is a fickle mistress. As usual, especially lately, I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning to start the day. On the way to taking Harley to his vet appointment I saw this pretty wee little sign of yellow happiness peeking out…

Happy March! Day 28: Lessons

If there’s one lesson I’ve learned this year during my MeMyselfI journey, it’s been to LISTEN and GO WITH THE FLOW. Yesterday, I visited my mom at the nursing home. I wasn’t there for more than a few minutes before I felt physically sick. Headache return,…

THIS is What Depression Really Looks Like

THIS is What Depression Really Looks Like

Depression. My friend just shared this link and as I read and scrolled through each photo, I started to cry and cry. This Is What Depression Really Looks Like But of course, people experiencing depression, anxiety, and many other mental illnesses often look exactly like somebody who…

Giving Up Depression for Lent

Giving Up Depression for Lent…seems to be FINALLY working. Either that, or the Zoloft has kicked in again. Oh yeah and the sun has started to shine and the fresh air smells amazing. I’ve had several NORMAL days in a row this week. Thank God. It…

Depression

While I don’t wish the ills of Depression on ANYONE, I wish people could understand what it really was like deep down inside… It’s not JUST being sad over life events. It’s not JUST Seasonal Affective Disorder due to the endless cold and winter. It’s not…

DEPRESSION SUCKS.

DEPRESSION SUCKS. I WISH PEOPLE UNDERSTOOD THE DIFFERENCE between being sad over stuff and clinical depression. Dealing with both at the same time, sucks. Physically not being able to get out of bed and feeling like not existing—not the same as being sad over stuff. It’s…

Whine

“I’m living so far beyond my income that we may almost be said to be living apart.” -e e cummings I’ve decided I should never have kids. Why?…because mornings like this morning? Make me want to stay in bed all day. 1. I want to stay…

Unholy Ghost: Writers on Depression

Passages from Unholy Ghost: Writers on Depression From “A Delicious Placebo” by Virginia Hefferman I would say I was sick- sick with any ailment I could think of except “depression,” which no one, no matter what the brochures with grainy girls’ pictures and the word “reputable”…

99.9% of the time

I LOVE my work area. The reception lobby in my building is spacious and bright and full of walls of windows on my left and right and above with the very nice skylight. That certain 1% of the time that I have a splitting sinusy/migranish headache…

Depression, UGH.

Ok…so when the fuck am I supposed to start feeling better already? I gave in. I relinquished control. I admitted my *illness* (ugh…) is beyond me and I need help to get past this…I am taking the GD anti-depressants. (Ok, only for a little over 2…

Umph.

I don’t get it. I really don’t. Yesterday, I spent time with a dear friend. Good talks. Tough times. I came home to a raging headache. Sinus pressure like, but getting worse by the second with the sun…as soon as I could, I took a nap…

I feel…

abandoned, abnormal, achy, aggravated, agitated, alienated, alone, amused, angry, angsty, antisocial, apathetic, apologetic, ashamed, awful, awkward, bad, baffled, beat, befuddled, belittled, bittersweet, blah, blank, blind, bold, bonkers, bothered, brain-dead, breathless, broken, broken-hearted, bruised, bummed, callous, changed, clueless, cocky, cold, complacent, conflicted, confused, confuzzled, crappy, crazy, crestfallen,…

All of my life, I’ve been looking…

All of my life, I’ve been looking… But it’s hard to find the way Reaching past the goal in front of me While what’s important just slips away It doesn’t come back but I’ll be looking All of my life The fun part of…depression to me,…