…someone would create a universal blog feature that allows me to read the comments on blogs that I leave comments on…via email.

…that all the things I want to blog that are floating around on notebooks and in my head, would just appear…How can I feel BEHIND on my blog? Not in a stressful way, I find my blog is a HUGE catharsis to my consumption addictions to *All Things*

…I didn’t calculate that it has been 10 years since the last time I particpated in one of my favourite things to do…*singing* 10 years. (Along with the 10 year college reuinon this summer, there is ALWAYS a choir reunion. I haven’t been singing for 10 years. I sang in church, in school, in college, with a few voice lessons here and there, at a music camp. And for the last 10 years? Nothing. Sigh…where the hell does time go?

…that for just once or twice I didn’t have to be the one who *plans* everything to get friends together. Be it for coffee, a parade, a dinner, a random night hanging out. Blah.

…I could become invisible and see who would notice first. What if I stopped sending emails? What if I didn’t blog so people who might want to check up on me…could…

…I knew why I hate HATE answering my phone. Although I speak above about wanting others to make the plans. Or notice if I were invisible. I don’t want to talk on the phone, unless, I want to talk on the phone.

…I didn’t constantly debate my future in my head. I will be happy wherever I am. I just want to KNOW. Now. And then move/take a new job etc…in a few months.