Life goal…not dread going to my yearly doctor appointment because I continue neglect my health and personal well-being. To face the shame, disappointment and complete inability to take care of myself sends me into a tailspin every single time. Believe it or not outside of morbid obesity and the evil depression, I’m sort of healthy. On the cusp of several major problems that all can be eased by exercise, eating right and losing weight. I’m 42 years old. I’m an intelligent human being. The fact that I have been unable to free myself from this black hole is my greatest mystery and challenge in life.