This mood does no one no good.

Sigh.

I guess all in all when thinking about life so far, I’ve lived 36 plus years of life and been pretty darn happy along the way. The only constant in this equation was me. So why would I think that somehow, somewhere I will find someone else to add to the equation at this point in the game that could truly be someone I need.

Not just someone. Not someone to flirt with. Not someone to dream about. Not just another casual friend. Not a day to day email buddy, Not a once a week date.

But someone…who could really get me. Who would want to get me that I would want to get back.

Why do I even bother thinking about all the possibilities along the way…I should just be me. And be happy being me.

But my mood tonight tells me otherwise. Too many thoughts of the past. Too many make believes in the present.

Bah. I hate this mood.