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All Things Depression

“I don’t want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done something wrong, something so huge I can’t even see it, something that’s drowning me. I am inadequate and stupid, without worth. I might as well be dead.” ― Margaret Atwood

All Things Depression. The Big D. My nearest and dearest old friend. Fuck depression. I WISH PEOPLE UNDERSTOOD THE DIFFERENCE between being sad over stuff and clinical depression. Dealing with both at the same time, sucks. Physically not being able to get out of bed and feeling like not existing—not the same as being sad over stuff. It’s not just people I loved died. It’s not just that time of year. It’s not just my personality. It’s all that AND A MESSED UP CHEMISTRY IN MY BRAIN.

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DEPRESSION SUCKS.

DEPRESSION SUCKS. I WISH PEOPLE UNDERSTOOD THE DIFFERENCE between being sad over stuff and clinical depression. Dealing with both at the same time, sucks. Physically not being able…

Big D

Just a cyclical element of my genetic charm. Ah, Big D. You come and you go and always come back. Tis not the weather I love Winter! And…

Whine

“I’m living so far beyond my income that we may almost be said to be living apart.” -e e cummings I’ve decided I should never have kids. Why?…because…

Unholy Ghost: Writers on Depression

Passages from Unholy Ghost: Writers on Depression From “A Delicious Placebo” by Virginia Hefferman I would say I was sick- sick with any ailment I could think of…

99.9% of the time

I LOVE my work area. The reception lobby in my building is spacious and bright and full of walls of windows on my left and right and above…

Depression, UGH.

Ok…so when the fuck am I supposed to start feeling better already? I gave in. I relinquished control. I admitted my *illness* (ugh…) is beyond me and I…

Umph.

I don’t get it. I really don’t. Yesterday, I spent time with a dear friend. Good talks. Tough times. I came home to a raging headache. Sinus pressure…

I feel…

abandoned, abnormal, achy, aggravated, agitated, alienated, alone, amused, angry, angsty, antisocial, apathetic, apologetic, ashamed, awful, awkward, bad, baffled, beat, befuddled, belittled, bittersweet, blah, blank, blind, bold, bonkers, bothered,…

All of my life, I’ve been looking…

All of my life, I’ve been looking… But it’s hard to find the way Reaching past the goal in front of me While what’s important just slips away…

Styrofoam Depression Manifesto (Initial Draft)

I found myself writing these thoughts a few hours ago…I thought I would share. Word for word rambling thoughts from my journal…And, no it doesn’t HAVE to make…

Notes on Depression

Flights of fancy, mercurial moodiness, brilliance, visionary imagination, brooding, morbidity, despair, sensuality, mutability all are aspects of bipolarity. Once upon a time, I thought this was me. I…

My selective high functioning self

  1. Dart Playing and massive apartment hunting on Saturday that turned into wine bottle at new Cafe and making new gay boyfriends while commiserating over the lack…