I put in my notice of resignation today…and have been smiles all day thinking about my new adventure.

However, next week? I will be in shambles thinking about leaving behind a building full of amazing people and friends who work tirelessly to make our community a better place. (Geez-I have tears in my eyes just writing this now, I can’t even imagine.)

I went back and found these quotes from my blog…telling, eh? I chose Buffalo. I chose this agency. And now I had to make the choice to leave and pursue a different path. (Which, seriously I’m veyveryvery excited about. But right now, I’m reminiscing…)

Saturday, May 21, 2005
When it rains it pours

Holy Hell! What a week.

This morning, I was ACCEPTED into the NYC Teaching Fellows Program for the FALL! 1/10 applicants accepted! Woo hoo! And I got a job in Buffalo working at a non profit, found that out yesterday. And I heard back from law school, telling me I can register for the Fall to complete my final year.

All in one freaking week! Overwhelming, just a little bit!

Tuesday, June 14, 2005
So today…

I’m still cranky. Go figure.

I found out some good news though, other than alterations for my bridesmaids dress will only cost $20, I will be starting to work full-time at new non profit agency on Monday. At least until they fill the position I’m covering for. So I have high hopes that I will be working FT for most of the summer until school starts. Nice. Real nice.

Today, the agency sent out a formal email saying I was hired…a few minutes later I went into the President’s office. And *re* introduced myself, told her it was a pleasure to be working with her agency and I look forward to doing many great things…yada yada yada…made sure she knew I was planning on taking over someday and that I would be interested in other positions within after I completed my law degree next spring. Just in case she didn’t already guess.

I really did want this path…until things changed.

The last six months have been a roller-coaster trying to make up my mind over what to do and then the decision was made for me when I was told my I was now part-time. I never imagined once I entered the doors of this agency that I would be leaving so very, very soon after beginning, but the position I took did not lead me down the right road. I had to go elsewhere. And I did. And I WISH I COULD TELL YOU ALL ABOUT HOW EXCITED I AM and what I will be doing etc…but my blog is too public. You will all know soon enough (small town) but I won’t be mentioning it here, well at least not in Black and White.

Just a long day of me being excited and sharing the news and then being wistful. I mean at my last job, which I did not want to leave at the time either, and had been working at for over five years, I had to write a STRONGLY WORDED resignation letter explaining why I had no choice but to leave. (A letter that I re-read a copy of last night and was SHOCKED that I was so, so blunt about! Go me! I didn’t know I had it in me but eegads, what a doozy!)

TOTALLY different circumstances this time. While I need to leave my position, I did not want to leave my paychecking paying agency. That is, until I started preparing for the interview at the organization I just accepted. (My reporting Director used to work at the agency I work at now, so we have MANY of the same people in common!) Countless hours of research into this organization (and field) and two interviews and a coffee date with a future co-worker later and I was 100% sold. So sold that I did the stupidest thing ever and didn’t even send out another resume for over a month, because nothing else came close to comparing. And I wanted THIS JOB. Lucky for me, they felt the same way.

So see, things are good. Very good. I just know how much I will miss everyone. And while everyone is replaceable, there are better times than others to become replaceable. This would not be one of those times, at least for the position I’m leaving behind. But I have no control over those decisions that were made. And I wish the new director all the best in finding my replacement.