Giving Up Depression for Lent…seems to be FINALLY working. Either that, or the Zoloft has kicked in again. Oh yeah and the sun has started to shine and the fresh air smells amazing.
I’ve had several NORMAL days in a row this week. Thank God.
It always feels so distant and unreal on the other side of a depressive bout. I beat myself up a lot…”you weren’t really THAT bad, you were exaggerating, you are just lazy…get over yourself.” Evil Depression. Making me doubt and hate myself.
I do know another sign that I’m on my way up and out…
I bought books and been reading (once again) about ways to handle depression. Cause when you are IN THE DEPRESSION there’s no way in HELL you want to read about it.
I have to admit, I’m a little afraid I might not make it out of this coming weekend alive though….Tis St. Patrick’s Day Weekend and the BFF from Philly is coming in town. A full weekend of back to back fun and merriment!
Starting with QCRG Roller Derby and Ron Hawkins and the Do Good Assassins on Friday (Yes, I’m doing both…getting to the show late.)
The LeftOvers at the Old First Ward Parade and JP’s on Saturday.(Although honestly, I don’t see myself making it Saturday morning/afternoon…)
And the Downtown Parade and The LeftOvers at the Irish Center on Sunday.
Might was well jump back in feet first, eh? All or nothing.
Sláinte!
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