Too Soon. It was bound to happen. Of course this SOON?  Ugh. Hit me like a ton of bricks.

Today I was at the apartment at the same time Mark was (he is getting the rest of the stuff out of the apartment.)  The hot water heater is broken and I had to tell him that someone was going to be there at 4. I walked in the door and told him and then turned to look at the computer because I wanted to send a quick email to friends telling them I wasn’t up to meeting them out tonight.

And there it was. His profile on a dating site.

Up on the computer, active and live.

Had I not said anything. Had I not initiated the ending, he would have just been puttering along. Not answering my questions about the future, not rocking the boat, not trying. Nada.

I feel used.

Good times.