I’m typing this while trembling. I’m in a self-induced information overload anxiety attack and I need to get out of my own head. My heart is racing. I’m on the verge of tears.

This last tweet, coupled with reading that of course the US retaliated against the recent Iraq retaliation has me shook.

Of course I know this is how the Mad King thinks. I just can’t believe this is real life.

Really, real, life.

The last 24 hours have been — life-altering? I’m 100000% behind everything New York State and Erie County is enacting. The importance of flattening the curve means healthcare officials won’t have to choose which critically ill patients desperate for medical attention, get ignored in favor of the younger patient. Or “healthier” patient. Or god-forbid-but-you-know-its-true the “well-connected wealthy” patient.

THANK YOU NEWSPAPERS for opening up the paywall on these articles for the general public.

Articles about Flattening the Curve:

If you have to ask WHY? You aren’t paying attention.

Buffalo News: Why drastic measures are being taken without any confirmed COVID-19 cases in WNY

Poloncarz said this is not a time to panic but to exercise good judgement and to avoid crowded places. When asked about people eating out as part of St. Patrick’s Day celebrations this weekend, he answered, “I’m not going to them. And I don’t recommend other people go until it’s safe.”

Burstein was also asked about what she would recommend for people who go to the gym or attend church.

“Stay at home,” she said.

I don’t doubt one moment that COVID-19 isn’t in WNY already and I think it is wise to act accordingly, it’s just a matter of time. I feel very privileged to live in Erie County, NY right now under the guidance of our County Executive and Governor. Their leadership is commendable and will save lives. WHICH IS the polar opposite of the Mad King and his endgame.*

*My God, at least Thanos wanted to indiscriminately wipeout half the population.

I can’t even put in black/white what I *really* want to say and what I think, I’m certain I’m already slated to be one of the 1st to be round up in a resistor sweep and that’s without stating most of the thoughts in my head. These are dangerous times.

During the 2016 election I had a premonition of violence, internal civil war, people dying I assumed when HRC was elected, the Trumpsters would revolt. I never imagined the violence would be a virus killing our most vulnerable while the President sat by idly. Whod’a thunk it?

Be safe and smart my friends.

(Stocking up. Also, the mask, I had to put it on upon entering the hospital to go up and see my doctor in primary care. I don’t have masks at home.)

As for me personally? Well, I’ve been sick since last Friday evening, so it’s been only social distancing for me. Today’s the 1st day I spent out of bed and upright. No fever. Still coughing, chest achy from coughing and short of breath from coughing and moving around too much. But I’m feeling much better. It’s Day #3 of antibiotic, I’m using my nebulizer, drinking insane amounts of fluids (and taking extra vitamin C) I’m shooting for a return to work on Monday, but not if my cough still feels like it does today. I just won’t risk it (even though I see a few people at most at work…)

I’m not gonna lie, I’m nervous. If what I have right now is just random flu/bronchitis, I don’t want to know what COVID-19 will bring. The breathing issues scare me a lot. I’m not used to being asthmatic on top of getting general bronchitis infections, this is a whole new scary game for me this year. I don’t plan on going anywhere or doing anything that’s not absolutely necessary. Call me crazy, but living through the swine flu alone was not fun. If I can avoid getting sick and more importantly AVOID GETTING OTHERS SICK, I’m all for it. Isolate me forever for the betterment of mankind, I’m game.

UPDATE: I’m no longer trembling with anxiety. Sometimes I just need the release for my own sanity. Hopefully, this post will also educate and help others along the way. THANK GOD FOR MY ALL THINGS JENNIFER OUTLET.

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