As I said a while ago, everything feels possible and impossible at the same time.

I’m struggling.

I’m not the person who is going to take just any job and leave in a month or two or even six. I’m not. If I’m not the right fit for a certain position and someone else is…meaning someone would likely stay in that position and be happy for years to come, I’m not going to take that opportunity away from an agency to hire someone really meant and qualified for the job. Despite the fact, I could do it well.

I’m the planner the organizer the researcher the writer the networker the coordinator by trade and I need to find a position that can allow for this kind of advancement within if I take an administrative position.

The jobs are few and far between and as anyone knows, there is an abundance of people qualified and OVER-qualified for each position.

I was just very kindly told by a great organization that I have a very *strong resume* code word, you wouldn’t be happy doing this administrative assistant position, and they’re completely right. In fact the Director mentioned with my legal training and connection to several prominent organizations in the community, I should keep my eye out for the Prospect Research positions, like there are any of those floating around in Buffalo.  I would also love, love to get more involved with Grant Writing, but again, I don’t have enough professional background in this area to be hired. I have the research and writing background from law school…I can do this work with my eyes closed, and love it, but…I’m somewhere stuck in the middle, professionally speaking.

All I know is, I can’t afford to lose $1,000 a month when my position goes down to PT on Oct 1st.

So where does all this leave me?

Darned if I know.