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All Things Depression
“I don’t want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done something wrong, something so huge I can’t even see it, something that’s drowning me. I am inadequate and stupid, without worth. I might as well be dead.” ― Margaret Atwood
All Things Depression. The Big D. My nearest and dearest old friend. Fuck depression. I WISH PEOPLE UNDERSTOOD THE DIFFERENCE between being sad over stuff and clinical depression. Dealing with both at the same time, sucks. Physically not being able to get out of bed and feeling like not existing—not the same as being sad over stuff. It’s not just people I loved died. It’s not just that time of year. It’s not just my personality. It’s all that AND A MESSED UP CHEMISTRY IN MY BRAIN.
I do not like myself enough to even try (to take care of myself.) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh. #depression I NEED TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD. (Aside – it’s one…
I feel like I look old today. Old as in *my age* old. I’m tired. Of all the things. Of nothing. IN THAT MOOD. IN THAT HEADSPACE. I…
I’m a bit scared of how despondent I’ve become… In these moments I’m thankful for people with hope and energy and rage and resilience – fighting for change….
I’m not saying I’m experiencing a midlife crisis, I’m just saying that juggling depression/anxiety, t2d, <peri>menopause, & yet unnamed chronic inflammatory illnesses? during a global pandemic & collapse…
Just got an official coding in my medical records for Chronic Fatigue. I sooooooooooooo wonder if it is from #LongCOVID though. (Despite never having an official COVID diagnosis…
In early December when my doctor did this Depression Screening…I was off the charts. I cried in the office after the last question. “I swear I’m not suicidal,…
I’m so so so so so so so SO thankful for my theater family (and new friends) (and more time with old) the past two years. If not…
I’m thankful I dragged myself to my doctor a few weeks ago for #depression. I cried while answering the screening questions in the office knowing how bad my answers…
I really need to get out of my own head. I can’t stand how on a “normal” day there are ups and downs and I feel happy or…
Every. Single. One. Well, except not eating. I excel at overeating. And emotionally distant, meh. In the “please don’t check in on me I’ll be fine just leave…
Be kind to each other. I post this with trepidation, I’m NOT looking for comments or encouragement. 1. I feel better when I release these thoughts from inside…
END THE STIGMA Kate Spade. Cheerful! Happy! Successful! Anthony Bourdain: Dark. Twisty. Successful! Me. Content. All Things. Not Famous But Successful? What do we have in common? Depression….
I just saw this sentence come through on Twitter: Is mental health just as important as physical health? Mental Health IS Physical Health. I don’t understand. The brain…
Mental Health Screening Tools Oy vey. Despite knowing what my results would be today, because it’s been a rough few weeks. I took this depression screen test that…
Health. Ugh. This. Hit. Hard. Today. I’ve had a VERY BAD week. Monday was the worst. Bottom crawling, called doctor to make appointment. Tuesday/Wednesday I slept a lot….
I feel really weird right now. Last night I was bubbly and filled with possibility, a million ideas for my friend’s theater company. I had a great day…
Unnamed. First of all I think the rehab/nursing facility my mother is in is one of the most depressing places on the planet. With that in mind, I…
I’m so tired of being tired. I’m so tired of whining about being tired when other people have real problems. I’m so tired of having silly problems. I’m…
Right now. In the midst of depression it’s hard to remember the feeling of “normal” which is why I find blogging about these things so beneficial for me—-when…
Mirror, Mirror. And Just Like That Off the Roller Coaster. I really hate myself sometimes. I start doing good things for myself and moving forward and then I…
No Foolin’ This is Depression My head hurts. Is it really already time to get up? What’s the point? Where the hell did this depression come from? Why…
The UNIVERSE is a fickle mistress. As usual, especially lately, I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning to start the day. On the way to…
If there’s one lesson I’ve learned this year during my MeMyselfI journey, it’s been to LISTEN and GO WITH THE FLOW. Yesterday, I visited my mom at the…
Depression. My friend just shared this link and as I read and scrolled through each photo, I started to cry and cry. This Is What Depression Really Looks Like…
Giving Up Depression for Lent…seems to be FINALLY working. Either that, or the Zoloft has kicked in again. Oh yeah and the sun has started to shine and…
While I don’t wish the ills of Depression on ANYONE, I wish people could understand what it really was like deep down inside… It’s not JUST being sad…